I watched the blood trickle down my wrist
My eyes completely covered in mist
The pain wasn’t
as much as yesterday
But I knew this was the only way
She said I was nothing
That nobody would want me
She said nobody liked me
And that my life was such a pity party
My throat burned with the insatiable desire of pain
And my eyes, with the overwhelming tears to tame
I had had enough, I wanted it to end
My life, my soul, for I had reached a dead end
I just couldn’t keep on living
A life so full of me sinning
It had to stop…I couldn’t control
The adrenaline and my raging heartbeat
I picked the razor and it slipped
But I picked it up again and dug a little too deep
I lay in bed in case my body jerked into a fit
It hurt
God! It hurt to the bone
I felt so happy yet so alone
Finally ‘I did it”, I thought
I thought I was seeing the light
I closed my eyes and stifled the scream
That threatened to kill my dream
Goodbye world Goodbye strife
Goodbye people Goodbye love
But please, world, do me a favor
Don’t let a girl like me ever delight
In the art of taking away her life.
By Winnie Mbugua,
Ngara gee, 404
